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I MISS YOU

2009-01-20T11:52:00.000-08:00

I write this cause i think of you,
i think of you and i feel blue...
You were so warm and loving to me.
I let guard downt and you let me see,
that love could once more belong to me.

I let u in it was no sinn,
still cant see u fell for him.
I stay up at night thinking of you,
why cant you see the wrong you do.

Cause in youre hart you must feel,
youre soul whit out me can not live.
I think thats why you want me close,
but if time pass and u wont choose,
i can not stay so close to you,
my hart is dead and cold from you.

Remember sillybee what we once had?
Our laughs could not shange to sad.
You were my inspiration to hold on,
The strength u gave me felt no wrong.

I know u feel it deep inside,
that what u did was wrong to hide.
You could had pushed me far away,
instead you told me i sould stay.

As u did this i grew cold..
To be this close to one u love,
and can not show or get involved.

Ontop of all you wont call,
you sit back and watch me fall.
when i need you ure not there.
that why i cant get of my mind.
All that once were true to uss,
feel so far and out of tutch.

But u clame u want me close,
i am to dear for you to loose.
So silly let me feel that way,
that u need me close so to say.
U know baby i do love you so,
hold me tight dont let me go.

So baby if u do love me,
let me feel and let me see,
that this is not a joke to bee,
and you realy feel for me...

Tell me to come close to you.
Call my name like you sould.
Give me respect like others would.
Tell me i am worth all this.
I cant live whit out ure kiss.

So baby i do miss you so,
i think of you my hart says go.

You may wonder why i choose,
not to give up or to loose.

That is love iff you cant see.
you are all that mathers to me.

it mathered to me

2009-01-19T05:42:00.000-08:00

demon wathing over me, come close and ill let you see

how mutch that girl means to me and all u stole and broke for me

you were my friend u said atleast, behind back you stole you beast

all the love that mathered to me, i cant see or i cant feel

only coss u stole from me, my soul i cant get back to free

why did u do this to me, when you knew she mathered to me

this love that once loved back to me,

i wish for once is ment to be

lonely

2009-01-19T05:27:00.000-08:00

i keep my self lonely to punnish my self, for loosing the one who gave me will to exell
i deserve solitude for loosing my self, i deserve the pain, i wont rebell
ill keep my self sad to replenish whats lost, ill keep my hart broken by will of the host
i feel like shit for what i lost, how can i go on when i lost the one that mathers most
spirits wathing over me, give me strenght so i can see, the person that i need 2 bee,
to become the love i want to bee, for the girl i need to feel,
close by hart and close 2 tutch, close enough to mather mutch

demon stole my hart to be

2009-01-19T05:05:00.000-08:00

my demons i dispite, i cast my soul and hope to die,whit out my love i can not bee,
i can not see, i can not feel, you that once belonged whit me, i can not see what is ment to bee,
this demon stole here love for me, i will no longer laugh and smile, my soul is gonne she took it away, i only hope i have a say. you took my love, my will to survive, my hart is broke barely alive, this girl that once were close to me i can not see i can not feel, here world do not belong to me, i can not bee and i can not see, the world that once was ment to bee u broke so fast i can not see

shattered dreams and broken glass

2008-10-20T17:46:00.000-07:00

i sitt alone, i feel alone,
i dream alone i am alone...
i need some one 2 keep me here,
i need some one2 remove my fear
that in this life there is no meaning
whit out a love 2 give u feeling
coss there are no love out there
that can remove my raging fear

all i have are shattered dreams,
and broken glass of my own means
all i want is a place 2 stay
a place 2 pray a place 2 say
this is were i do belong,
this is were i can stay on

so spirits looking down on me
let me se and let me be
i can take my life 2 be
all that u would wanna se

feel my mind of lunacy
there is no lie 2 make me be
some one that belong tho the

close 2 real

2008-10-20T17:05:00.000-07:00

give me strenght 2 face the day
let me grow 2 have a say
give me intelect 2 find my way
let me learn 2 follow my ray

give me spirit 2 marsh my path
remember my love and not my wrath
give me agility 2 dodge my foes¨
or lett the blade come in there troats

give me stamina 2 face em all
let em see that i cant fall
so i give me light 2 face the dark
and give me might 2 strike my mark

give me peace so i can rest
dont let me be like all the rest
let em se how wast i cast
dont be afraid 2 show im fast

so my rimes are fast i write 2 last
i rime 2 feel close 2 real
i aim 2 climb my one line
and maybe find a kind of sign
that let me feel close 2 real
and let the world know how i feel

Stick and Stones

2008-10-19T06:51:00.000-07:00

stick and stones, pack of lies

tell me why u chose 2 hide
dirt and sand, in my hand
this is why i chose 2 stand
far away but close 2 u,
ill be there iff u want me 2

you got my hart, u got my soul
treat those nice dont let em cold
ure in my eyes ure in my mind
dont run from me i will go blind
u smile 2 me i smile 2 u,
i know this love is true 2 u
u smile at him he smiles at u
dont look at me my hate is true

i fill whit anger i fill whit hate
my boddy starts 2 seperate
one whit love and one whit hate
cant keep em 2 getter it kills my faith
i seperate 2 let u be
the love that wil belong 2 me
but in this act i hope 2 see
ure love for me will sett u free

a rose in one hand the gun in the other
if i shott my self who would it bother
i load the gun and close my eyes
cant live whit this ill end the lies
i squese the rose and start 2 bleed
drops of blood my mind would feed
the feeling of my mind at need
the need of comfort the need of u
the need 2 make my love come true

i will rebuild i will replennish
i wont let this thing be my finnish
my boddy is strong my mind is deep
i souldnt doubt id make this leap
ill fight for u ill fight for me
ill fight for all that needs 2 be

stick and stones, dirt and sand
iff u read this try 2 understand
that life is made 2 give u meaning
and iff u get that from this sceening
my love for u wont have no meaning

RIDDLE MY LIFE

2008-10-17T06:08:00.000-07:00

i stand awake dreaming of u, on how it would be me and u
i stand awake thinking of u, on how it all came untrue
i think of u i think of him, my love for u will never end
i dream of u i dream of him, my faith for life is wearing thin

riddled in love riddled in hate
riddled in why i lost my say
riddled in life riddeled in death
riddled in how 2 find my way

i stand awake screaming for u, how the hell did i loose u
i stand awake calling for u, come here my love and see this trough
i think of u i think of me, iff there was a god would he lett us be
i write of u i write of me, on how he snatched ure love for me

riddled in heaven riddled in hell
riddled in how i could make him pay
riddled in fear riddled in anger
riddled in how i can possible stay

i stand no longer awake dreaming of u, i can not let my hart fall 2 u
i stand no longer awake thinking of u, i can not let my toughts come true
i wont think of u i wont thing of me, this is toughts i need to free
i wont dream of u i wont dream of me, this dreams do not belong 2 me

riddled in choices riddled in u
riddled in how u made this true
riddled in changes riddled in time
riddled in why i walk the line

riddle me this and riddle me that, riddle me all the tings i past
riddle me hope and riddle me life, riddle me answers that make it last
riddled in this and riddled in that, riddled in why it broke so fast
riddle me love and riddle me faith, riddle me all the things i hate

my riddles conclude that this is true
my riddles conclude my love wont die for u

this is some of the riddles i fear
this is some of the riddles i bear

time will pass and time wont stay
this is how we will find oure way

ure love for him my love for u
these feelings cant be true 2 u

i wish u love i wish u meaning, only wish for a nother sceening
ill wish for u ill wish for him ill wish ure love 2getter never end
so gl my love ill wish for u, ill be there when this time is trough